Friday, November 20, 2020

Praise and Worship during this time!

" Prepare ye the way of the Lord ..."  Are you ready?

Nov. 20 - Wow, a lot has happened in the past couple months.  Before the election, we heard all the prophets for today speak of Trump’s 2nd term, a couple years of unrest, America’s upswing, coming revival, etc.  We believed then and we believe now – God is in Control!  Always has been, always will be.  God is not done with America yet.  I’ve been saying that all along and am still saying it.  Trump will take his 2nd term and will serve it.  Great things for America are yet to come.  

 The past few weeks, I’ve had various neighbors come to me and discuss the times, but mostly, they need comfort because they are in fear.  They don’t hear the truth like I do (because William searches diligently for it and shares it).  I’ve been saying the same thing for months:  God is still in control – he’s stepping in for a bit of whop-ass – he’s going to be meting out some justice!  Fight for your rights as Americans, say no to stupid!  Speak the truth EVERYWHERE, etc.  We are the forerunners to the next era (a short one) and may have to be martyrs for the cause. We have to be the leaders we were called to be.  There are few of us, and many there are of the scared, those who just need an encouraging word and pointed in the right direction.  We have continued and will continue to be outspoken about the truth of what is going on in this world.  In the end, no matter what – WE WIN!  Jesus is Victor!

I’ve been doing a free (on the internet) study with Dallas Theological Seminary since about the last week of Oct.  The first lesson I went through was Names and Attributes of God by Dr. Scott Harrell; very good, engaging speaker, awesome overview.  Anyway, I’ve started I & II Thessalonians (just did the overview and chs 1-3) and it is amazing how absolutely timely it is.  With what is going on in the world, the parallels are astounding; however, even Jesus warned us many times that persecution MUST come! We were destined for persecution – following Jesus will cost you!  We are in a spiritual war!  We MUST engage with the ‘outside’ world and not stayed holed up – we are the witness for TRUTH in all of its forms!

one of the paintings (in my practice notebook) I've done in the past month or so

I have found myself the past couple months in constant praise/worship with such powerful music (Shane and Shane, Paul Wilbur, Joshua Aaron, Dance with Me, and a bunch of new stuff we found by Messianic Jewish musicians, esp. Teshuva  – so awesome and powerful – I do literally praise and worship all day, dancing around and God told me that is WARFARE!!  I’m praising God and thanking Him for all his victories and declaring what He said He is going to do!!

When you live in perfect faith, there is no fear or worry for what is to come.  God ALWAYS takes care of us – we always have what we need.   No matter our circumstances, the battle belongs to the lord – when we keep that mindset, that vision, then we have no reason to doubt.  The past couple months have been massive warfare for us.  The more we speak out, do God’s will in all things, the more the enemy attacks.  Just since the end of Sept. we’ve had our breaks go completely out on our 20-year old car (God preserved William on the road by telling him just in time to “pull over and call the mechanic”.  We had just had them completely replaced because they were making a lot of noise - roters, calipers, pads, etc) and since William had missed working most of Sept. because of traveling down to the Rogue Valley to put my mom on hospice, his back going out on him, concern for breaks, etc., we didn’t have the money to pay for them, so William’s brother offered!  What a blessing!  Then not a week goes by and the timing belt snapped as William was driving down the street.  We couldn’t afford that, so Max loaned us the money to have it fixed.   What a blessing!  All this time, more work missed because William had no car to drive (and his back was still going in and out on him).  On top of all that, my children and grandchildren (whom I haven’t seen in 4 – 8 years) flew out to Oregon to visit my mom (only 3 hours away) and I couldn’t go see them due to not having a car!  Then, no sooner we get that fixed and now into November, somehow our windshield split down the middle with spiders going every which way!  Then, last week, my half-sister died.

The point is not the circumstances, but praising God and growing in Faith throughout the onslaught, and still witnessing!  We were destined for persecution!  And next week, we have another funeral to attend …

Listen to the prophets:  Tomi Arayomi, Kim Clement, Mark Taylor, Jonathan Cahn!

Saturday, September 12, 2020

Choose today whom you will serve!


Sept. 12 – “Choose today whom you will serve!”

Where are the pastors, the leaders of the church?  Hiding in their homes instead of rallying the troops and holding prayer and fasting meetings?  Or are they too worried to take a stand because of the people they would lose – those who just want to hear the fluff and stuff.  War has been declared!  Thousands of lives have been disrupted beyond reason, because of the selfishness, lies, hatefulness of the ANTIFA and BLM.  Oregonians/Americans!  Stand Up and Say “No More!”

Prov. 29:18  ASV  Where there is no vision, the people cast off restraint; But he that keepeth the law, happy is he.

Job 33:3 KJV  My words shall be of the uprightness of my heart: and my lips shall utter knowledge clearly.

Prov. 1:7  KJV  he fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge: but fools despise wisdom and instruction.

Prov. 9:10  KJV  The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom: and the knowledge of the holy is understanding.

Prov. 18:5  KJV  The heart of the prudent getteth knowledge; and the ear of the wise seeketh knowledge.

Is. 5:13  KJV  Therefore my people are gone into captivity, because they have no knowledge: and their honourable men are famished, and their multitude dried up with thirst.

Hos. 4:6  KJV  My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge: because thou hast rejected knowledge, I will also reject thee, that thou shalt be no priest to me: seeing thou hast forgotten the law of thy God, I will also forget thy children.

Wake up people of God!  We are ALL called to be a witness! Pastors, the people perish for lack of vision – internal – FEED THEM!  No more milk!  Give them substance - Seek the truth and prepare the people what is happening and what is coming!  The people destroyed for lack of knowledge – external – their blood is on YOUR hands!  Ez. 33!!

The people have no vision and will perish, they need to be prepared for the times we are in now, be given instruction of how to see and to stand, and they need to be fed the MEAT of the WORD; thus instead, they believe the lies (fake news) because we are NOT TELLING THEM THE TRUTH!

We need to be knowledgeable of our times, but out of wisdom from God, being led by God at all times.  Learn the signs of the times!  What do you do with it?  Gain wisdom from God by seeking Him then SHARE IT!  Where are the prayer meetings??? Every church should be open 24/7 for such, especially now!  THIS IS WAR – a CALL TO FASTING AND PRAYER!  Where are you all?

2 Chron. 16:9  For the eyes of the LORD run to and fro throughout the whole earth, to shew himself strong in the behalf of them whose heart is perfect toward him. Herein thou hast done foolishly: therefore from henceforth thou shalt have wars.

2 Chron.  7:14  If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.

We are heading into a time of restoration, of revival, of healing, of our nation turning back to God – it will be a period of time prior of violence and upheaval; however, but God IS still God of America and God is not done with America!  We will come out of this better and stronger!  We are NOT in judgment – yet.

The more people stay in the darkness (lack of knowledge/wisdom) and the longer they turn from Christ, the darker their minds will become until they think killing people is normal.  After the rapture, there is no more redemption!  The time is now – a short window of time before the Holy Spirit is taken from the earth (rapture of the Bride of Christ).  Be ready:  Matt. 25 – the wise virgins had the oil (Holy Spirit) and were ready when the groom (Jesus) came to claim the bride.  Just because you may have said “the prayer” when you were young and you think you are saved (do you have fruit? Gal. 5:22), you may not be saved IF YOU ARE NOT THE LIVING WITNESS GOD has created YOU to be!

Rev. 18:23  And the light of a candle shall shine no more at all in thee; and the voice of the bridegroom and of the bride shall be heard no more at all in thee: for thy merchants were the great men of the earth; for by thy sorceries were all nations deceived.

The fire we’ve experienced this week in Oregon (Sept. 7-11) was caused by Antifa/BLM setting them on their way out of Portland when they scattered because Trump deputized the Sheriffs in the state as federal marshals and were arresting them.  (YES there is proof out there, but FB and YouTube keep taking down the videos/pictures!!! Being the communists they are!)  BLM  (out of their own mouths) said if they didn’t get their way, they were going to burn down everything.  They burned down MY childhood home (on Nevada St. in Quiet Village and 552 Eagle Mill Rd.)!  They burned down MY hometown (Ashland , Talent), My friends and family were affected, MY childhood valley – the Rogue Valley!  Yes, I’m pissed!  They have destroyed!  God’s people are a people of building up.  God is about Good, Pure, Holy, Building Up; however God will NOT be mocked!  This is the season to fight back and stand against the enemy!!! Ecc. 3.  Our fighting is to be with prayer, speaking truth, helping, sharing – 2 Cor. 10: 3-5  For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war after the flesh: (For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds;) Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ;

This fire is a mockery (enemy’s fire-physical) of God and all He stands for.  The fire of the Holy Spirit (the last great revival)  is a spiritual fire that is prophesized to start in the Pacific Northwest (back in the 80’s by several, including Billy Graham’s group) and this (physical) fire of the enemy of God is a slap in God’s face saying, “here’s your fire”.  The fire of the Holy Spirit is in the hearts of men – repentance and prayer!  Come back to God!!  It’s a time of restoration, of building – NOT tearing down!

In this month of Elul (Jewish calendar – part of our September) is a time of repentance and prayer (His gates are ALWAYS open) – “The Kind is in the field!” and ready for the harvest!  He has left his crown of glory in order to draw close to us – a season where He is more accessible to us; (I found a Messianic Jewish Rabbi, a lot of his stuff I agree with, just not the legalistic stuff: Rabbi Mordecai Griffin  Where are we?  Hiding in our homes/churches (if they are still open) – all the more NOW more than ever – we need to be in the field (outside the church buildings/on the streets) teaching people the truth!  The truth of God (revival) and the truth of our times (end times/revelation).  Revelations is not a “horror story” – it is a time of rejoicing – the King is coming!!!  God is stepping in – Jesus is being revealed in the USA again!  God is stepping into the works of men and saying to the devil, “it is not yet your time!!”  Be courageous, not fearful and in despair!  This is a time of rejoicing – God is NOT done with the church yet in the USA (or anywhere else – take courage) – God has a purpose to fulfill – He is stepping into the works of men and saying “Wake UP!”  We are already at war!   ANTIFA and BLM and the Democrap party have already Declaired War!  Stand up and fight back – the west (all of the world for that matter) is under a smoke screen, trying to sway your focus – do not be fooled!.

Listen to the new song – a battle cry for the truth:  “Where We Go One, We Go All” Dave Brainard Jenny Tolman 4/18/20

 Just beyond the stormy night Where the darkness turns to light Waits a reckoning of wrong That will reveal we were right Our battlefield is filled with ghosts The cannons flood the air with lies and smoke Oh, but those who listen through the fear Will hear the trumpets battle cry We stand, we crawl We fight, we fall We heed heaven’s call Where we go one, We go All A sleeping army is now awake Victory is ours to take Some will heal, some will feed Some will follow, some will lead, But, more than this, we all will pray We stand, we crawl We fight, we fall We heed heaven’s call Where we go one, We go All We stand, we crawl We fight, we fall We rise up tall When we stand, we crawl We fight, we fall We heed heaven’s call Where we go one, We go All Where we go one, We go All.

Look through the smoke to see the truth!  Go to the high ground (with God) of law, order, justice, peace, life, and morality.

Joshua  24:15 KJV  And if it seem evil unto you to serve the LORD, choose you this day whom ye will serve; whether the gods which your fathers served that were on the other side of the flood, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land ye dwell: but as for me and my house, we will serve the LORD.

Josh. 10:8, 25  And the LORD said unto Joshua, Fear them not: for I have delivered them into thine hand; there shall not a man of them stand before thee.   And Joshua said unto them, Fear not, nor be dismayed, be strong and of good courage: for thus shall the LORD do to all your enemies against whom ye fight.

The lines HAVE already been drawn – right vs. wrong/God vs. Satan.  People of God - Do not fear!  We are at war, but God is with us and WE WIN (Look at Revelations)!  This time we are in is a war of theology, of thoughts, ideas – the will of God vs. the will of man – do not be deceived!  The lawless one is satan  - 2 Thes. 2:3-4  Let no one deceive you in any way. For that day will not come, unless the rebellion comes first, and the man of lawlessness is revealed, the son of destruction, who opposes and exalts himself against every so-called god or object of worship, so that he takes his seat in the temple of God, proclaiming himself to be God.

We are in that time now!  Wake up and educate yourself on the facts!  Find people who speak truth – look at their fruit – are they living for God?

1 Jn 4:3  (and 2:22) And every spirit that confesseth not that Jesus Christ is come in the flesh is not of God: and this is that spirit of antichrist, whereof ye have heard that it should come; and even now already is it in the world.

2 John 1:7  For many deceivers are entered into the world, who confess not that Jesus Christ is come in the flesh. This is a deceiver and an antichrist.

1 Titus 1:9  Knowing this, that the law is not made for a righteous man, but for the lawless and disobedient, for the ungodly and for sinners, for unholy and profane, for murderers of fathers and murderers of mothers, for manslayers,

2 Thes. 2:6-12   And now ye know that which restraineth, to the end that he may be revealed in his own season. For the mystery of lawlessness doth already work: only there is one that restraineth now, until he be taken out of the way.  And then shall be revealed the lawless one, whom the Lord Jesus shall slay with the breath of his mouth, and bring to nought by the manifestation of his coming; even he, whose coming is according to the working of Satan with all power and signs and lying wonders, and with all deceit of unrighteousness for them that perish; because they received not the love of the truth, that they might be saved. And for this cause God sendeth them a working of error, that they should believe a lie: that they all might be judged who believed not the truth, but had pleasure in unrighteousness.

If you are not saved (Jesus is the only way – Jn. 14:6) AND filled with the Holy Spirit (Mar. 1;8, Jn. 14;26, Acts 2:38, 5:32, 10:45, Rom. 9:1, 15:13, 1 Cor. 6:19, 12:3, Eph. 3, Tit. 3:5, Heb. 3, Jude 1:20) you WILL be deceived! 

Listen to the true prophets of today (Kim Clement, Mark Taylor, Jonathan Cahn, David Wilkerson, etc. I’ve mentioned in prior posts):  2 Peter. 1:21  For no prophecy ever came by the will of man: but men spake from God, being moved by the Holy Spirit.  What the church didn’t do (was asleep) in the 60’s, 70’s, 80’s, we need to do now!  Stand up and take back our country!  Do not be a coward!

Rev. 21:8 ESV  But as for the cowardly, the faithless, the detestable, as for murderers, the sexually immoral, sorcerers, idolaters, and all liars, their portion will be in the lake that burns with fire and sulfur, which is the second death."

Where are the Calebs and the Joshuas?  Have they all turned to Ahaz and Jezebel?  Stand for truth!  Stand for Jesus!  Take a stand for freedom, children/babies, marriage/family, morality, law and order, etc. and etc.

Cast out confusion, lawlessness, lies, etc. from your life!  We are living the bible – what every prophet and man/woman of God has looked forward to throughout the history of this world is what we are seeing/experiencing today!  We’re in the “Joseph” age – a time of storing up for what is coming and the revealing of mysteries,  the “Moses” age – “let my people go” out of darkness and into the light/plagues for the unbelievers, people going through the “Job” experience, the “Gideon” experience “the battle belongs to the Lord”, the Joshua experience “don’t be afraid”, etc. and etc.  God IS active in the lives of humans – we are His cherished creation.

Freedom is not free.  There is a price to be paid – get out there and speak the truth!  Live for God, be a witness, AND SPEAK TRUTH!

Dictators throughout the ages have used these same tactics (Globalists, Communists, Marxists, Fascists, etc. – they’re all the same lawless, God-haters)  they get the youth all riled up, have used the brainwashed youth (brainwashed by the educational system that was taken over decades ago in our country by the Humanists/Marxists, etc.), taken over the media (all main media is owned by the globalists, communists, etc) building up their strong arm of their propaganda machine and point fingers and accuse everyone of wrongdoing while they are doing the very same and saying they’re not!  The BLM (  group now is the propaganda machine and the ANTIFA are the strong-arm militia trying to destroy and take over our country.  It is no different than the ‘brown shirts’ and Nazis of Germany. God is stepping in and interceding for us; however, we need to be in prayer and fasting – this month especially – Jonathan Cahn has called a month of prayer and 10 days of fasting and prayer (between Rosh  Hashana & Yom Kippur – Jewish New Year and Day of Atonement) Sept. 18-28 and we ALL need to be in prayer!  Even more so, the call is for the entire month of Sept. and even into Oct. because of the elections.  But today, Sept. 12 is a minor holiday called Leil Selichot which is a time for prayers for forgiveness in preparation for the high holy days. 

The Return - a national call to prayer!

And I recently found this site about prophets and here’s one of the articles:  David Wilkerson

I just saw Trey Smith's video of the Prophecy of George Washington on America:

Wednesday, July 15, 2020

Visions and Dreams


July 15 – Wow and wow, last night was powerful.  We were listening to some sermons, videos, etc., then we went into prayer, specifically for Tamara, and right when the prayer started, I had a very vivid vision:

The background was black, and a pale red, see thru lion stood there ¾’s facing left (his right); sometimes he was roaring, sometimes breathing out fire, sometimes speaking (while pacing back and forth), sometimes he was just silent and watching.  It went on for a time, back and forth between the various activities, but over time (I sensed a large amount of time passing), the red got brighter as well as the background, from black to grey and back to black, etc., while at the same time, there was a growing light.  Then suddenly, there was a bright, blinding light that just exploded on the scene.  I sensed that there was a lot of sound at the same time, even tho I didn’t hear it.  Then, just as suddenly as the light came, there was sudden blackness, but out of that blackness, came a bush, a very large bush started to grow rapidly, but only the exterior grew – thick branches as if coming outwards in a circle from a tree stump, filled with leaves.  Then it seemed to fill in after the outer grew, the interior grew and filled in, even sticking out through the exterior framework.  I sensed a period of time passed when these two parts were filled in.  Then, suddenly a new, fuller interior took over the other interior, much brighter (again, the bright light exploded), fuller, greener, and much larger and it sprang up very, very suddenly, as if all of a sudden very mature, overshadowing the other two, yet a part of it – the leaves stuck out and covered the other two.

Then the vision was over at the moment William finished his prayer.  At first, I thought it all represented Tamara – that she would grow into the woman of God she was called to be.  But instead, as soon as I told William about it, he immediately has the interpretation.  The black is the world, the lion is Jesus through the 2000 years, the red of the lion represents the blood of the saints over the ages, the fire is the Holy Spirit, the walking/talking back and forth is the spreading of the gospel, the standing and watching is Him holding the ground.  Over time, the gospel spread and things got brighter.  But now, we are in the sudden light, the time of final revival.  The plant represents the same time period: the outer framework of the church (the outer branches), the first inner is the main body of the church, but the last interior that was rapid, is the current mature Body of Christ, the Bride, rising to its fullness will overshadow in brightness the former.

I was so wound up and excited about this vision, I shared it with Bible study this morning – wow, everyone got goose bumps!

We also discussed these trying times and how we have got to bear the presence of suffering and exercise complete self-control of speech and manner – to be calm, gentle, quiet yet firm in our beliefs, active, and steadfast.  But we win!  Jesus became small so that we may become big in Him.  Rise up church – be the giants of God you were called to be!  Every man is big in Christ – we must be more than conquerors .  We must peddle love and compassion, share the love of Jesus, expel the fear that has taken over the people.  I suggested a team who go door to door with flowers and cookies – friendship evangelism (like the Samaritan at the well).  We must break the back of division and racism.  Bring back the spirit of community with love, and compassion.

July 24 – wow, we’ve been listening to some great videos lately:  God’s Power is Coming: The Two Witnesses – just like we’ve been saying all along, the 2 witnesses are not 2 people – but peoples: the born-again Jews and the born-again Christians – we are to be the final witnesses!  There is a great, the greatest of all human history, revival coming – we are on the very verge of it all!

We are in the time of sorrows now, but sorrows for the world, the non-believers, not for us.  We are in the time of Joseph now, for us the believers, the time of stocking up, of plenty, of renewal, for what is to come.  For after the great revival will be the great breaking away and the time of martyrdom.  But God wins in the end – Jesus Will be here soon!

Other videos:  America, you are in the middle of Divine Restoration, God Hates a Coward, The greatest motivational video, If This Video Doesn’t Wake People Up, Then I Don’t Know What Will, The Underground Churches in China, What it Takes to be a Soldier in the Army of Christ – This Is War!, The Beginning of Sorrows – Q & A, the Kim Clement prophecies (it’s amazing how accurate they are), and the Where We Go One, We Go All videos (several out there) along with the song by Jenny Tolman.  Also, we found 2 other prophecies about Donald Trump – one in 1983!  Along with the Mark Taylor.  And many more videos I can’t think of right now.  Wow, it’s been an awesome time of learning.

Thursday, April 2, 2020

Back to blogging again

I have been most remiss in keeping up this blog because I got way over busy trying to run a business.  I did continue to keep my journal (which I’ve done for so many years); however, even by 2019, it got very sketchy in parts.  I’ve notice that I haven’t put up a blog since Jan. 2018, so I’m going to start putting my journal entries into the corresponding dates (start to look for dates between now and Jan. 2018 so as to catch up on what we’ve been learning and doing).

After almost 2 years in business (and ministry), we sold our store (God’s House of Vision/Art Gallery and Studio), Aug. 31, 2019, and moved (July) into a house we bought in May.  It was too much work to run a store and do the work at our fixer-upper, 122-year-old house.  I was so run-down emotionally and physically by Sept. that all I could do was just sit on my front porch (or inside) for hours on end doing nothing for a few months before I recovered.

During that 2 years, not only did I give art and piano lessons, sell art supplies and art work, we also held weekly music/jam/karaoke nights to have fun and to minister to others by way of a weekly potluck, gave out encouragement and sleeping bags/clothes and other items as needed, singing Christian music (as well as secular), and at times William preached.  We also held another night (sometimes more) of pure ministry and discipleship).  See more pics of what we did at that store:   God blessed us there so greatly during that whole time.

It’s been a rough winter in some ways, but great in others:  the great part was the weather – it’s been such a sunny, mild winter overall.  In fact, most of Feb. was high 60s and low 70s and sunny.  It’s been a rough winter for William and all his hard work – he’s just plugging away 36-40 hrs. a week, at almost 62 years old, doing construction!  We’ve had to constantly keep in prayer about his health and his back staying in place.  He’s going to cut back on hours and that type of work when he starts taking is retirement in June.  Hopefully, we’ll have more freedom – we want to get back out to the streets to do ministry like we used to, plus some.  I’m pretty much at home most of the time – I’ve only gotten to use the car 3 times in the past 4 months, so I only go where I can walk – and everything I need is within walking distance.

In January, I started teaching the kids again (even though I had been giving piano lessons in my home since Sept).  I started when the homeschool moms got together and asked if I’d go to the Art Center in Coquille to teach the kids – I have 13-16 who regularly come.  One of the moms pick me up on Monday mornings to go, they usually give me a gallon of milk from their cows!  Such a blessing!

I had a very bad February – I was sick the entire month!  Literally!  And it wasn’t even my fault this time!  My body went wonky around the first of Feb. – literally blew a fuse on the hotflash business – I went for 4 solid days/nights with no sleep, totally wired, and mega hotflashes constantly.  It was so intense, I started to get nauseas by day 3 and once my stomach got involved, then it was off to the races with 2 solid weeks of vomiting because of the inflamed ulcer – but ….. I had no more hotflashes (at least until the middle of March when they started coming back).  Weird!  Then, I start to get better and start eating again (by week 3, I had no more than 5 hours of sleep in that 3 weeks – literally – and no food.)  I didn’t get dehydrated this time; however, since I forced liquids.  I then got ear infections that lasted for a couple weeks.  So … an entire month mostly in bed!  I read a lot of books – at least 1 a day.

I barely got started with the kids again in March when the country shut down.  Then, William was sick for 2 weeks with a chest infection.  Anyway, he didn’t work for 2 weeks which of course means no income at all!!   So, on Wed. when the little boy came for his piano lesson (they always pay at the beginning of the month), and she hands me an extra $40 and said, “it’s God’s money” – such a blessing because we’re out of bread, butter, eggs – which is what I said when she also said how they have chickens and asked if I wanted eggs!!  The day before, when I went to the store, I could only get 1 stick of butter and ½ doz. eggs which came to $3.60, but when I dumped out all my pennies, nickels, and dimes out onto the counter and saw I didn’t have enough, the guy behind me said, “here add this to the bill and I’ll pay it all.”  Wow!  That blew me away.  But even more so, a few days after, that same mother of the piano student came over (having just gone to a food pantry) and brought me 3 boxes of food (including butter and eggs!) AND prepaid me $50 for piano lessons for next month!  God ALWAYS provides no matter what!!

Even though I wasn’t earning much any longer with my online teaching (Indiana Wesleyan U quit giving me classes Nov. 2018, and I’ve not had any since, and Taylor Univ. has almost disappeared (only 2 students left, who will be done in April and no more coming – both universities say “it’s due to lack of enrollment), God has always provided for our needs – even when we were homeless.

Anyway, God has soooo blessed us even more that while William was sick, we’ve got back to listening to sermons, sometimes 2-3 a day, and in the Word so much, and in warfare prayer – it’s been such a blessing during this time.  God is teaching me not to worry (again)!!!  We found a new speaker to listen to:  Blake Curry – we’ve gotten so much out of his sermons and teachings!!

I was reading a book recently by Linda Nichols and just love the words to a song she quoted – an old hymn:

If I gained the world but lost the Savior,
Would my gain be worth the lifelong strife?
Are all earthly pleasures worth comparing
For a moment with a Christ-filled life?
Had I wealth and love in fullest measure,
And a name revered  both far and near.
Yet no hope beyond no harbor waiting
Where my storm-tossed vessel I could steer.
If I gained the world  but lost the Savior
Who endured the cross and died for me,
Could then all the world afford a refuge
Whither in my anguish I might flee?

Such good words – so important.  Her book “If I gained the whole world” was so awesome.

I’ve read the most awesomest books lately by Lynn Austin!  Chronicles of the Kings Series was sooooo awesome, about Kings Ahaz, Hezekiah, and Manasseh of Judah during the time of the Prophets Isaiah and Micah.  This author has brought the Bible alive and put living people to a rather boring story otherwise.
I’ve been reading a lot – probably 8 books a week lately, by Terri Blackstock, Jane Kirkpatrick, Kristen Heitzmann, Rick Joyner, and Lynn Austin (among others).  With the country being shut down as it is, all libraries, restaurants, etc. and etc., I haven’t seen many people or gone anywhere.  I’ve done a lot of little projects around the house, but pretty much not much is going on – I haven’t even had my piano or art students lately.  We’ve been very broke (by USA standards; however very rich by what most people in other countries live by), but God has provided for ALL of our needs and will continue to do so.  With the promise of the coming money from President Trump, that will help us get caught up and, hopefully, get to build my garden beds (we figure it will take about $300 to build 4 of them) as well.  I’ve already started a bunch of seeds; I keep them upstairs in my bedroom by the window (or outside as the weather allows), but lately, they’ve not gotten much sun since it’s been so rainy lately.

Since William went back to work, we’ve been listening to Curry Blakes videos every night now on healing (19 videos of a seminar he gives – very powerful); he said:  “Faith is when you stop believing what you see and start seeing what you believe.”  It’s all about knowing that the spiritual world is MORE real than the physical and how to operate in it!  That’s what we learned from Mel Bond as well.

I was reading one of the above books (can’t remember which) and found this quote: Belief in Yahweh doesn’t come with your mind, it comes with your heart, when you choose to believe only in the things you can see with your eyes and touch with your hands, its idolatry.  Trusting in [the government or anyone] on trusting in your own wisdom and intellect.  There is no difference in God’s eyes – it is all idolatry.

April 1 - Wow, God is sooooooo good!  He ALWAYS takes care of us - why do I ever doubt?  Today, Louise came over bearing gifts - toilet paper (among a variety of other things and food – including lamb steaks) - a commodity that is severely lacking in this area!  She had called this morning and said she had several things for me and that she had gone shopping and actually found 2 stores that had TP - wonder of wonders!  We were down to 1 roll for each bathroom and I thought I would have to resort to paper towels (of which I did manage to buy last week, since there seems to be plenty of that)!

God has always met our basic needs (and then some) so why do I start worrying?  That makes me realize how 'still in this world' I still am, like Jesus told His disciples “oh ye of little faith”….  God says to keep our eyes on Him and what He will do, not look to the world to take care of us (no food stamps!!).  I spend my days in constant prayer and praise to Him, read His Word, listen to praise and worship music, constantly battling the enemy to keep my mind on Him - so why do I let worry creep in?  God provides just enough $$ so I can walk over to the store and get what I need as well.  I do notice that I worry less and less as God provides for us in such a variety of ways.

I haven't gone anywhere for weeks (except to walk to the library almost daily to get onto the internet - since it's been closed for a couple weeks now and lately it's been so cold and rainy, I try to keep my time in the internet short and precise - just check what I need to check and upload what I need to upload). 
Anyway, we’re doing great now, car’s still working, God provides for everything we need, and my yard is coming alive with flowers and fruit trees!

Last fall, I went on a Women’s Retreat with the Arago ladies – such an awesome time!  Like I had been telling people for some time, my ‘fun factor’ was WAY down – I needed some serious fun and I got it!  I even got to go on a zip-line!  WOW, soooo cool!    But the best thing was the speaker:  Corine Stanley.