I normally don't post 2 in one day but ...
I haven't updated this blog since Nov.
of 2020. I kept my journal all that time; however, I just never uploaded
anything, because a friend and I started a new school in our
community and it took all my extra time. I have posted several posts catching you up ... do check them out :)
March 19 – The twins have been acting much better since we’ve had our talk; however, I’ve been ostracized by most everyone else in the school! Even the 6th grade boy and his mom quit coming on Mon. and Tues.! I don’t know what to do about this! I haven’t done anything wrong and no one is coming to me personally and telling me why they are tiffed! Except the 6th grader's mom, saying that the twins are too disrespectful and pick on her son and they don’t want to work with them. I need to actually be working with him by himself because he really is at a different level, yet not at his grade level. But I don’t have the time to work with him, because the twins need constant babysitting! Thank goodness for Spring Break, because I need to get away from there! I’ll be going in this week though to clean the entire place! Do I even get appreciated for anything I do? NOOOOOOOOOO
My granddaughter contacted me several times this past week and a half – she’s been doing a lot of horse camp stuff - learning a lot about horses, cleaning, learning various ways of riding, whatever they do at a horse camp. She sent me a picture of herself after a particularly dirty day. I’m so glad at least one of my family is talking to me. I’ve spent 2 months trying to call my mom and she won’t answer or return my calls, so by the end of February, I quit calling. They know where I am. My daughter, Laura, texted me ‘happy birthday’ Feb. 27th – no ‘mom’ attached or anything – just generic. She’s not talking with me either. Just like the Bible says, that “in that day, their hearts will be cold” … This is a spiritual battle and the battle belongs to the Lord. The only thing I can do is to keep praying and interceding for them.
William and I have been excitedly talking about a new (and I think is the correct one) spin on Daniel and Revelations. Now, all along, we always knew that Revelations – the Revealing of Jesus – isn’t a doomsday book – it’s where God’s people are given revelation, as they need it, to make it through to the end. We are almost to the end – what if ‘they’ got it all wrong. I was raised Seventh-day Adventist, went to the academy, etc. and etc. I’ve always, since a kid, been a scholar of the ‘end days’, because since I was a kid, I believed I was living in the last days. The ‘Cabal’ is the Babylon spoken of on Revelations! That is what is being exposed and coming down now! It is the World System, the One World Order (and the leaders thereof) that are the anti-Christ! Yes, one world leader will rise up – tribulation; however, being tied to that money, global system is Babylon – and anyone bowing to that evil (Mark of the Beast – the ‘jab’ is so full of evil stuff!), going along with the system (so as not to ‘make waves’, compromising, giving in so as not to ‘look bad’ to others, etc.) in any way is taking the Mark! Now is the time to stand for truth in all its forms!
Anyway, we have been preaching for years that we are about to see the greatest revival the world has ever seen – and we are finally there! World revival is sparking out everywhere and before the next few years is out, the world-wide revival will be so huge, so encompassing, that there will be no where left on earth that hasn’t heard about Jesus. Signs, miracles, and wonders are happening all over, the dead are being raised – over 600 by David Hogan’s group alone (Mexico)! God has to expose truth (doing that now world-wide) in all aspects of life to everyone in order to pour out his judgment on the unbelievers. The line is being drawn now! You’re either on the side of ‘good’ or on the side of ‘evil’ – there is no more fence-riding! There will a period of time (7 more years, 40 more years?) of God’s Kingdom in action all over the globe, then the tribulation, then Jesus comes and establishes his 1,000 year Kingdom as it says in the Word. We’ve been watching the ‘Two Prophets’ Youtube channel – all the world catastrophes going on the past couple years – unprecedented. The earth is ‘groaning’ already! King Jesus is about to establish is Kingdom on this earth! Very little time is left – the evil ones are being exposed at a rapid rate now, but they will still do more damage as they ‘go out the door’. We cannot be side-tracked by that; but rather, keep focused on God and Truth! The evil has to be exposed (the old house torn down) in order to ‘clean up’ the mess (rebuild the house). There are the people being killed for sacrifice (in the thousands daily/weekly) by the Cabal and all the Satanists around the globe (abortion AND all the other ritual killings, as well as the innocent who, for exposing it, get killed) – it’s a fact – the underground (tunnels, DOMs) world was huge (are being taken out, several already, more to come) and that evil society is coming down in Jesus’ name! This news if finally being exposed to the main masses (hidden by the fake news for so long) by this Ukraine war – the Russians are the good guys! They are targeting and exposing the evil that the ‘elites’ of the world have created in the Ukraine! God has finally had enough and is cleaning house! Not only in his ‘body’, the church, but in the world. (Raw News has been a good one to watch for the truth news). Quit watching the fake news – all they do is lie! They were bought and owned a long time ago by the Cabal.
We’ve been meeting at the school every night this week for prayer – prayer for revival mostly, covering the Salem tent meetings going on right now. I went with Denessa last weekend (13th) and was quite disappointed. I wanted to get into a fired up, prayer and praise group with lots of people and we walk into the tent across from the State House and there are 4 people in there! It didn’t get to be more than a dozen by the end of the day when we left; however, someone sent us video via Denessa’s phone on our way back and the place was full! However, our time there was well spent (in prayer) and talking with a couple people I know God set up.
I know I've been too negative lately (I'm tired of being 'beat up'!) and need to re-focus. I know I am doing what God asked me to do during this time (the school), but it is so much harder than I expected it to be. I need to keep my eyes on God and not what is going on around me and try to keep positive.
Feb. 28 – I’m so tired of everything going on at school. The 10th grade girl and that typical teenage attitude of “I know everything, you know nothing”. I did a whole-class assignment (short story, narration – in her book even!) and she said ‘no’, so Denessa got on her about it for being disrespectful. And it blew up from there – now she says that I don’t know how to teach art or music and that she and the 10th grade boy need to take over! I don’t care, I’m so frustrated by it all anyway! I try to do a lesson and the kids won’t quit talking and listen to how to do it and then they get frustrated because they can’t do it, etc. and etc. I was giving her and the 11th grader guitar lessons, then he decides he doesn’t want to do it anymore and then she wanted to switch to Violin, which I accommodated, then she throws this fit! I actually asked the 10th grade boy way before all that if he would be willing to teach them guitar since he was far better (I don’t even practice and haven't played in years!) and he said he was too busy. I haven’t even gotten into some of my cool art assignments because of the kids’ attitude and disrespect. I’m at a loss – I don’t want to be there any longer! I’m tired of always being the bad guy when I didn’t even do anything wrong!
I share my stories with people in order to help them understand something I’m teaching Biblically, and I share them for their benefit – to see that they can overcome evil with Jesus’ help, etc. Why am I even bothering?! I sent Denessa another e-mail:
“I got to thinking about the episodes last fall and again now, they all began with teenagers … now we all know, they don't have a brain yet! (it is up to us to help mold it for the good of the community as well as service to God) You know what I mean; they think they know everything … it goes with the age – every generation for thousands of years. Why in the wide, wide, world of sports do these parents not see that 'the teenagers' speak and everyone bowed down and repeated the gossip, spreading the poison … covertly, of course. Creating the fall guy for everyone to tread lightly around, wishing they wern’t there …. I see the 'spiritual side' of this – which is what the repeated battles are – war which “isn't of flesh and blood, but of spiritual forces ...” Everyone needs to quit doing the narrative the rest of the country is doing – divide and destroy – the very thing they are all out there going to meetings and protests about – they themselves are propagating within the walls of the church/school that GOD CREATED IN THE FIRST PLACE! You know the spiritual beginnings of this whole undertaking and not only that, but the incredible wisdom and insight God gave us both in putting this whole thing together. Never has a project gone so well for me – and I've been on tons of boards, committees, etc. and etc. and held office, etc. and etc. projects galore in the past – but God's hand was on this thing from the get-go. Now, it is up to US, the physical/spiritual leaders to keep in prayer AND to squash this snake for what it is – to get the truth of the matter out in the open and make sure they understand that murmerings and whisperings of LIES must come to an end. It is obvious now that I am held in distain by all now, not even trusted by the kids (I can see it) and so, I'm sorry, but they are no longer listening to me, so it comes to you to call a meeting and set this straight. The one thing, like I said to you on Sunday, I cannot tolerate is that Witchcraft spirit and all the underlings that go with it. That evil snake must be crushed for God to have his purpose in this building/church/school that He has created. I have gotten prophecy from two sources now regarding our school, in relation to future events, kids, etc.) that God has a BIG purpose for us and we MUST BE UNITED ON ALL FRONTS! I am not mad, I am distressed that we allowed this to go on by not fully addressing it last fall. We hid it under a blanket for awhile, but no more.
I personally do not hold anger (I actually check out pretty good on that list – not to brag, but to say I do self-inventory often[I had presented Denessa with a ‘moral inventory’ list and she gave it to the kids]), but I am extremely impatient when it comes to spiritual destruction within my midst and nothing is done about it – we need to get serious about prayer (and we do along with our group, always pray for the school) and I know I was remiss in that. The times we are in are critical for what is about to come. Like I said yesterday, we are in the midst of rebuilding AND war AND tearing down all at the same time (Nehemiah, Ezra) and it isn't easy. We are charged with molding the characters of these children (and their parents and grandparents) and we must keep in the forefront that we are evangelists out to save them all. Therefore, they must be taught spiritual truths as we go along and this is a big one!
I got to thinking about how you said something about my past schools coming up – I'm wondering if they all missed the point I was making last Monday when I talked about hugging kids – the whole point I was making (my testimony in part) was that I was damaged at an early age, God healed me, and I was sent out to minister to others likewise (3rd gr. teacher) – the many damaged children I ministered to over the years was them trusting me, coming to me, opening their hearts, crying on my shoulder, and God healing them – in part or in whole at that time. And when the national mandates went out in the early 2000's to 'not touch a kid in anyway' – my refusal at that time was to say no, I will continue to minster to these children no matter what anyone says. I guess I didn't explain things clearly or some other message got out and got twisted … I don't know, but whatever it is, it must be killed. Whenever I share with the kids – in whatever form: personal experiences, education (lessons I ask for), fun, whatever – I'm sharing from my 'wealth' from the goodness of my heart to increase their wealth. The wise will take heed. I may not be the best at 'how', but the source is ALWAYS the same – I care and I want to see change for the better in every part of our world – and this is the one part of the world I was given charge of by God Himself to accomplish. Just like Jesus said in the word: “the world first hated me, so too will they hate you.” This is a spiritual war that we are in because we are no of this world – Just like Jesus!
I would like you to use this and the past e-mail if needed to make sure EVERYONE involved in this school understands. I hold no malice toward anyone, I just want to do God's will without getting sick of stress in the process – I've been feeling it come over me again the past couple days! I don't have time, now the energy to go through a month of that again.
I found a great follow-up for the 'moral inventory' list that we should talk about (in fact, I've been going through this as well again), I've been taking free classes from Dallas Theological Seminary - just finished the Book of Jonah (this was the best one: https://courses.dts.edu/module-1/jonah-session-4/) - I'm working real hard with God to gain more patience and come up with more ideas to use with difficult people ...
Constantly renew our hearts and minds through self-evaluations – moral inventories.
Taken from the Dallas Theological Seminary's free classes:
The Book of Jonah: https://courses.dts.edu/module-1/jonah-session-1/ ”
March 10 – Again, back-talk, kids saying “no” – when I am only trying to help them! I am so tired of this! No back-up from anyone, parents backing their kids even when they are wrong! I’ve asked for parents to come in and help (I have Mon. and Tues.) and one mom won’t help with the twins because of how mean and disrespectful they are. I’m left to myself to try to teach them (mostly against their will) and trying to keep up with what everyone else is doing. There are only 4-5 kids there on Mon. and Tues. because they don’t want to be there when I am there! This lack of unity needs to stop! Another e-mail to Denessa:
“[G] said something last week that re-focused me ... again ... that it is the souls of man that God is after. Nothing else matters, not the daily things of this life. Last week he just randomly said: "Until I came to this school, I never even heard about God." That has really stuck with me when I came in this week and worked with the boys. They were doing pretty good Tuesday, for the most point, until afternoon - there was an issued with [G] on the playground. Anyway, I put him in the music room for awhile to think about it - he did and came out (the others were still at recess) and we had a discussion about 'What would Jesus Do' and I reminded him that was why we keep coming in day after day (all of us) to learn how to treat each other - if the world acted like Jesus taught it, wouldn't it be a better world? Well, this is our world, how we treat each other makes a better or worse world? Do you like what you see out in the world? Then why should we bring it in here?
He seemed to think about his and agree that we should make a better world here, etc. I think this was the first time he put 2 and 2 together with these concepts. I hope it starts reflecting, not only the way he treats others, but maybe we need to bring this up to the entire community there for morning devotion Thurs or Fri. Review of the moral inventory, these 12 growth indicators (other e-mail), my conversation (above), etc. Anyway, I am trying to keep in the forefront of my mind at all times that this is all for the Glory of God and to grow His Kingdom.”
